For someone who has always taken their body for granted I find my current state very frustrating. The only thing I know is that my heart still beats faster when I exercise, my blood pressure is high and I feel low. I have now been on blood pressure tablets for four weeks and I think I have got used to them - not too many symptoms apart from a dry throat - and the pressure is coming down but nothing very dramatic.
I tried another run, the first for a month. This time a circuit of 0.3 of a mile. In 15 laps my average heart rate rose from 146 to 167 for the same easy pace!
After I finished I felt better and more relaxed. I did more stretching than normal and thought that the way ahead was a small amount of easy running combined with a better regime of stretching. Later in the day I read the data from my Polar and immediately felt depressed again. At the moment I think that being low could be part of the problem. I am drawing a black cloak around myself and hibernating.
It will be better when I know something more definite - but that will be some time. The echo cardiogram is not until February and I have just had a letter from the hospital saying that they are a bit busy at the moment and the cardiologist will get round to me some time or other. Ah well
In the meantime I need to re-establish an exercise routine. I think I will start with cycling. It has always been my default activity and it is that it is very easy to vary the intensity level. You can pootle along, admiring the scenery, or you can wind it up a bit. Mostly I will be pootling. Running will be governed by my hrm as I do not want my heart rate to go too high. This means it will probably be a mixture of the slow and the walk.
Usually at this time I would be setting some goals for the upcoming year. In 2006 there was a modest plan of two marathons - I failed completely. In April I had a chest infection and did not start and in October I abandoned. This year there will be no running targets, just the aim of keeping going, of getting out into the countryside, without any care for pace.