Thursday, April 20, 2006

Not Running Again

This Sunday is going to be really hard because I will be in front of the television watching other people run.

One of my targets for the year is to run at least one marathon. Initially I fixed on Lochaber because I had to duck out last year and felt there was unfinished business. As I said in this post I had no great expectations of a good time. All I wanted to do was to nurse my shins enough to allow me to compete - get to the starting line. Of that I felt confident.

The good news is that the mechanical parts of my body held up. The massage on the calves to break up the scar tissue really helped and after the Algarve I thought I was making progress. However fate has a habit of creeping up behind you and smacking you with a sandbag. I did not expect to be ill. It started with a cough, which I thought would get better. After a couple of weeks of no improvement I went to the doctors who said my lungs were crackly and gave me some antibiotics. After the week things seemed OK but then a week later the cough came back again - just as before. So here I am a few days before the marathon taking more antibiotics, feeling feeble and sorry for myself.

Ah well.

But I have to be positive and plan what I am going to do for the rest of the year. It will almost like starting again. I have to be patient and mostly run at an easy pace and mix it with cycling.

That sounds good. I am not going to set any targets - just get into shape. There will be another race at another time.

In the meantime to all of you who will make it to the starting line - you have my best wishes.

Just like Laura said a couple of days ago.

New Age Running - Perhaps

It might be a strange way to begin a running blog but I have been thinking about whether man is inherently good or inherently base.

It all started with an article in the Guardian that argued the Christian viewpoint that goodness resided in God and that man needed his help to strive towards it. In doing so it dismissed as newage, consumerist, or Enlightenment derived (a rather strange conflation), the idea than man was inherently good. In doing so it contained the following passage:

"Every form of New Age therapy will tell you the same flattering half-truth: you are special, you are deep, you can attain fuller inner peace and strength, and you can discover the divine by deepened self-awareness."

This was the bit that caught like a burr because there is a considerable overlap with my ideas about running:

Special - yes we are all special but at the same time profoundly ordinary. We have much more that is common than is different and I am sure we have no single characteristic that is unique. However what is distinct is the particular mix that forms our capabilities and personality. The best way to describe this is the George Sheehan formulation that we are an experiment of one. This gets away from the implication that the word special means particularly favoured.

Deep - this is meaningless

Fuller inner peace and strength - now this is the heart of the soft-core running manifesto. The steady maintained rhythm of running releases: the feeling of doing something inherent to the species - something that as been done for all time, the sense of the countryside, the ability to see the familiar afresh on different days, an immediate connection with the body and your animal nature, a sense of achievement, a clearer idea of the capabilities of the body. It does not mean that you attain full inner peace - I am not sure this is ever possible, but it helps.

Discover the divine by deepened self-awareness - I don't know about the divine or whether it can be discovered through self awareness but I do know that running gives you a very specific form of self awareness. It strips away physical illusions - you get to know how fit or fast you are, how you can go on in the face of difficulties or how easily you take the soft option. This may not be spiritual enlightenment but it is one part of the jigsaw of who you are. The big things can only be tackled a bit at a time.

So there you have it - running is somehow or other some sort of New Age activity.

Who would have thunk it!

But if there is a fundamental dichotomy in the way human nature is seen, with some believing that people should be controlled because they are inherently weak, whilst others believing they should be encouraged because they are intrinsically strong, then the soft-core runner is definitely on the side of encouragement.